Friday, September 16, 2005
2:06 AM
I think, For a long time, I will stay in this frequency. IM going through these lows, and I could feel it seeping into every single bone in my body. Till summer, Ill start living another solitude life, get a job, make new friends. Get my new place and just get into my own solitude life. Probs get myself a car, and just do those long drives at night.
Building too much castles on the clouds won't do me good either. Complaining too much and just staring at the things won't make others go but makes the current situation worst. This purple, feels so goth and nice. Its time to dye my hair once again in Oct. Black and Red HOT streaks. Besides the really RED, i could add a tinge of purple here and there. People might think its weird and ugly, but the thing is, not everyone could pull it off. Everyone has their own art. Just like those street punks, goths, they have their own style of art. Scary in a way, but its beautiful in their own simple nature. Dun know why, Im beginning to see more beauty each day in things half the world dun think its pretty. Even the ugliest things. oh wells, its natural i assume.
I carry an Attitude that has burn a hole in my soft hearted heart. Coldness covers me whole. Just like those days. ;) I feel that month of June 2005 emotions coming back. Feels so like it again. Sometimes I could be such a bummer to myself. A pain in my own ass.
The internet is so screwed recently. It just Adds on to my already shit behaviour. You know, sometimes we look at other's entries that write like that, we find them childish and etc. Wondering what nature has got into that kid's mind. Why can't they kick out of their "reality" But seriously, this is their reality. This is their life. OKay im just linking random and useless stuff together.
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